Driving at 6:30AM this morning to work i noticed a guy bicycling out from my street and up the road. I assumed he was late for work considering the speed and the force in that he was riding. i was tempted to pick him up and tell him to throw his bicycle in the back and i would drive him. but i didn’t. i felt bad later on thinking maybe this was like the good samaritan and i had ignored him. and maybe just maybe i’ll suffer eternal damnation for not picking him up. i’m not sure…poor guy i just hope he makes it work on time today…

looking at the pictures and the videos make me just want to go back. homesick for a country. sigh i miss guyana…

i have a terrible headache today. i love kids but i don’t think i could have any of my own. i can’t wait to leave sigh…

i’ve been wearing sweat pants and warm layers all day and when one plays with kids obviously the temperature rises & the clothes start to come off. so wearing a tank top i was told quite blatently that i have "breasts." i ignored the comment. james, seeing that i didn’t respond and assuming i didn’t understand him, rephrased himself saying, "you have big boobies." how exciting

kids are kind of funny. they seem to expect that you can do absolutely anything never questioning ur capabilities. my little brother today insisted i draw a hammer on the doodle board if u know me i’m not the best artist. but he insisted and believed i could do it. in the end i did do it. when someone believes in u like that the actual process of fulfilling the dream isn’t all that hard in a way half the work is already done for u. its just u too have to do the same…believe.

I arrived home last night. i’ve been studying this morning. whether it will help. i’m not sure. test is tomorrow. i’m anxious about tomorrow and at the same time i wish i had gotten stuck in Fort Lauderdale and couldn’t make it. didn’t want to come home. sigh back to studying…

life can be a bit screwed up sometimes. decisions become impossible to make. feels become scrambled. everything just becomes so damn complicated because of such simple issues.

so i arrived in miami tonight. i think i hate airports esp. in Trinadad. anyways so this is basically the end of my trip. now everytime i see a truck i have the urge to ride in the back and dance. i’ve learned valuable driving lessons. i gained a sunburn, a suntan and a new perspective. anyways i’m tired. i probably won’t write everything that happened on this trip the pictures and memories are good enough for me. Guyana was wonderful and i will soon return.

Holy crap we’re packing tonight ready to go to Miami for tomorrow. ever seen a woman pack? yeah well times that by 3. its hell! lol anyways today i went to the zoo. so much fun. i’m tempted to take a plane to Guyana once a year just to see the zoo. i’ll post pictures. there were monkeys, otters, bobcats, puma, mantanee and soo  many parrots. amazing! anyways have to go help pack lol they want me to carry the peppers i think…

Yesterday was a beautiful day. we went to Kiatur (ok don’t know how to spell it) falls. it was amazing. i want to paint that when i come back. we also went to Baganara which was always beautiful. i went swimming in the Esquido river. climbed a few trees. was sick as hell there though cuz well i think i’m really bad in planes. i just realized that. anyways as for today.

i i was pretty sick. so i went to go buy rum and stuff with these guys. i’ve been doing a bit of driving here. its scary driving here although i know my limits when we hit stabourk market i refuse to drive. too scary. anyways i really don’t feel like typing right now. today is the last day. those guys will come back and they promised they would take me to the zoo. me want to see the animals and the monkeys. anyways love u all…