Throughout my life I have rebuked marriage and commitment. Why? Maybe its because I’m scared of having something like that then having it taken away or maybe its because I believe I will never have it. I mean why want something that u know in ur heart u may never obtain? I don’t know if any of this makes sense.

On the way back from a wedding in Calgary my Oma said, "Everyone just wants to be loved by someone." I hate weddings not because of the dresses, or the flowers, simply because of jealousy. In my heart I truly want to be that girl, holding hands with someone i love. maybe thats too much to ask for…