After watching people (which i do often) you begin to understand the world through there eyes and its the most interesting thing you could do. i almost wish you could make a career out of it. Anyways i have learned that love can be rewarding and it can be damaging. I want someday to feel that way but i’m not going to rush it. Love seems to have its own time and place for when things happen. Life does that too so you let nature take its course and pray that someday prince charming may come and i pray that i will accept him and he will accept me. Anyways, love is weird and i am only understanding this completely after i have seen others go through torture. I understand the risks and i’m willing to take them. Its weird i see people all the time couples, walking hand in hand enjoying each others company. At times i am in envy of them because they have someone who cares deeply about them and i know there are plenty of people like that but i wish sometimes that i could crawl into someones lap at the end of the day and that person could tell me that everything was going to be all right and that they cared deeply and would want me to be happy with what ever i do. Thats all i want out of life and to bless others weird i know. But i believe that is most soul purpose right now. anyways i better sign out its late. later