Today i learned something new, i learned that no matter where i go and how i get there God will always be with me. I don’t have to go to some great Christian school with a great view of nature, no not at all i can go anywhere and i know that he will be with me. Its crazy because it has taken me almost a month and a half to figure this out and to digest this new found thought. Life does crazy things to you and you wonder why and how. But its not the amazing and mind boggling experience that make you wise and the person i am today it is how i handled them and alot of the times i have handled them quite poorly. I have no idea what i want to be nor where i want to go in my life and i have listened to other peoples ideas and dreams, now its my turn its just a matter of ME turning the page to see the next chapter.
I have a question is succeeding only for the joy of succeeding. Most people who succeed in life get all the joys, of money children, wealth and happiness. I believe that i will never succeed. There are people that come into your life for no reason in particular but to bring you comfort. i thrive on asking questions, is it better for a living thing to die if they are hurting or to live? There are many ways that i can twist this statement but i choose to turn it in this direction. My rabbit is very old and about to die is it better to put him to sleep or to let him live? Also if there is a child that is about to be born that is going to be disabled is it better for the child to die or to live? It’s sad and i have been churning this thought through my brain over and over. I heard a sermon today that said we determine God’s character through how our parents act. How do we NOT think of God like this i do not know. I just so confused and scared lately. I wish he was really i really wish God was real!
Oh well i better sign out i have to do this lab, homework is piling up by the minute and i cannot waste a minute!
why is she so mean, why does she destroy me and expect me to grow i do not understand
There are some things in my life that seem to put a certain twist or turn on my life i believe that God is responsible for these amazing things. Just when i am about to quit and let go of absolutely everything, he gives me a crack of sunshine. These have been the most devistating and uncontrolable moments of my life and yet i feel Him he’s here. I’ve been worried lately as of what i’m going to do after college i used to think and maybe even a little that i was trapped and was indebt and born to do just what people told me but a new revalation has occured to me and i have learned that it is up to me. I am living my life, my life will not start after i move out nor will it start after i finish school, instead this is my life now and as it is and i must make the best of it. I leave it in God’s hands because i believe that is the only person in this entire universe who i would trust it with. Lately i’ve been feeling depressed and sad because certain people say certain things to you and make you question your rights, your abilities and qualities. So i have been listening to this song, the music isn’t what you call amazing but the words are fantastic and have really touched me.
Someone’s Watching over Me
Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is just you’re not here to say
What you always used to say
But it’s written in the sky tonight
CHORUS:
So I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark I’ll still believe
Someone’s watching over me
Seen that ray of light
And it’s shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it’s taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
Took this moment to my dreams
CHORUS
It doesn’t matter what people say
And it doesn’t matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you’ll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart
CHORUS
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark I’ll still believe
That someone’s watching over
Someone’s watching over
Someone’s watching over me
Hilary Duff
how is a person (teenager/ adult/ child) supposed to learn how to fly without flapping their wings i just don’t understand. Parents seem to want to hold onto their children when its time to go away to college and yet when they have them they constantly scold them for not being responsible enough. Is it our fault that our wings are cut and we will forever walk the earth rather than fly to unknown and exciting places?
