My LifeOctober 18, 2005 6:50 pm
This might sound really weird but i wish i had cancer i think my life would be alot more meaningful and purpose driven…
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hello m’dear~
having an illness does not necessarily mean your life becomes more meaningful. it actually makes you feel even more worthless sometimes. i hate the fact that im not normal, or normal looking even. it lowers your morale, and your self-esteem. not to mention the fact that i always feel like a burden to my family cuz they always have to take care of me. oh, and ppl pitying you. its sucks. =P sometimes i just cry to God and ask why he couldnt have just given me a normal life.
and yeah, every teenager will say that they hate their home, but there is a difference between bad and really bad. bad is like, “omg, i hate my parents, they dont understand.” really bad is like coming home at 9 pm every night just to sleep and spending your afternoons and evenings doing your hwk at the mall or in the library because every word your parents utter to you is of criticism, how much you piss them off, and how much you’ve ruined their life. oh, and throw in the ocassional death threat. =P
as for the other things, you don’t always have to make a concious effort to change the world. you are not superlady, mdear. that is God’s job. he will make it so that the little things you do will make an impact on someone else in a big way.
and if you think for one moment that you wont be hurting anyone if you find the perfect way to go, then you are highly mistaken. live on. you have an intense desire to help people, and how exactly are you going to change the world when you’re not around anymore?
on the contrary, your annoyances seem to be based on school. in that case, chill out!! =) look at all the sucessful adults around us. they’ve all obviously survived senior year. i dont even think it matters much to them anymore.
so, i dunno if this helped any, but…
{{hugs}} “it’ll be okay.” -winks-
luv ya girl.
Comment by Valen — October 19, 2005 @ 6:04 am
hello m’dear~
having an illness does not necessarily mean your life becomes more meaningful. it actually makes you feel even more worthless sometimes. i hate the fact that im not normal, or normal looking even. it lowers your morale, and your self-esteem. not to mention the fact that i always feel like a burden to my family cuz they always have to take care of me. oh, and ppl pitying you. its sucks. =P sometimes i just cry to God and ask why he couldnt have just given me a normal life.
and yeah, every teenager will say that they hate their home, but there is a difference between bad and really bad. bad is like, “omg, i hate my parents, they dont understand.” really bad is like coming home at 9 pm every night just to sleep and spending your afternoons and evenings doing your hwk at the mall or in the library because every word your parents utter to you is of criticism, how much you piss them off, and how much you’ve ruined their life. oh, and throw in the ocassional death threat. =P
as for the other things, you don’t always have to make a concious effort to change the world. you are not superlady, mdear. that is God’s job. he will make it so that the little things you do will make an impact on someone else in a big way.
and if you think for one moment that you wont be hurting anyone if you find the perfect way to go, then you are highly mistaken. live on. you have an intense desire to help people, and how exactly are you going to change the world when you’re not around anymore?
on the contrary, your annoyances seem to be based on school. in that case, chill out!! =) look at all the sucessful adults around us. they’ve all obviously survived senior year. i dont even think it matters much to them anymore.
so, i dunno if this helped any, but…
{{hugs}} “it’ll be okay.” -winks-
luv ya girl.
Comment by Valen — October 19, 2005 @ 6:05 am
having an illness does not necessarily mean your life becomes more meaningful. it actually makes you feel even more worthless sometimes. i hate the fact that im not normal, or normal looking even. it lowers your morale, and your self-esteem. not to mention the fact that i always feel like a burden to my family cuz they always have to take care of me. oh, and ppl pitying you. its sucks. =P sometimes i just cry to God and ask why he couldnt have just given me a normal life.
and yeah, every teenager will say that they hate their home, but there is a difference between bad and really bad. bad is like, “omg, i hate my parents, they dont understand.” really bad is like coming home at 9 pm every night just to sleep and spending your afternoons and evenings doing your hwk at the mall or in the library because every word your parents utter to you is of criticism, how much you piss them off, and how much you’ve ruined their life. oh, and throw in the ocassional death threat. =P
as for the other things, you don’t always have to make a concious effort to change the world. you are not superlady, mdear. that is God’s job. he will make it so that the little things you do will make an impact on someone else in a big way.
and if you think for one moment that you wont be hurting anyone if you find the perfect way to go, then you are highly mistaken. live on. you have an intense desire to help people, and how exactly are you going to change the world when you’re not around anymore?
on the contrary, your annoyances seem to be based on school. in that case, chill out!! =) look at all the sucessful adults around us. they’ve all obviously survived senior year. i dont even think it matters much to them anymore.
so, i dunno if this helped any, but…
{{hugs}} “it’ll be okay.” -winks-
luv ya girl.
Comment by Valen — October 19, 2005 @ 6:06 am
hello m’dear~
having an illness does not necessarily mean your life becomes more meaningful. it actually makes you feel even more worthless sometimes. i hate the fact that im not normal, or normal looking even. it lowers your morale, and your self-esteem. not to mention the fact that i always feel like a burden to my family cuz they always have to take care of me. oh, and ppl pitying you. its sucks. =P sometimes i just cry to God and ask why he couldnt have just given me a normal life.
and yeah, every teenager will say that they hate their home, but there is a difference between bad and really bad. bad is like, “omg, i hate my parents, they dont understand.” really bad is like coming home at 9 pm every night just to sleep and spending your afternoons and evenings doing your hwk at the mall or in the library because every word your parents utter to you is of criticism, how much you piss them off, and how much you’ve ruined their life. oh, and throw in the ocassional death threat. =P
Comment by Valen — October 19, 2005 @ 6:10 am
having an illness does not necessarily mean your life becomes more meaningful. it actually makes you feel even more worthless sometimes. i hate the fact that im not normal, or normal looking even. it lowers your morale, and your self-esteem. not to mention the fact that i always feel like a burden to my family cuz they always have to take care of me. oh, and ppl pitying you. its sucks. =P sometimes i just cry to God and ask why he couldnt have just given me a normal life.
Comment by Valen — October 19, 2005 @ 6:12 am
and yeah, every teenager will say that they hate their home, but there is a difference between bad and really bad. bad is like, “omg, i hate my parents, they dont understand.” really bad is like coming home at 9 pm every night just to sleep and spending your afternoons and evenings doing your hwk at the mall or in the library because every word your parents utter to you is of criticism, how much you piss them off, and how much you’ve ruined their life. oh, and throw in the ocassional death threat. =P
as for the other things, you don’t always have to make a concious effort to change the world. you are not superlady, mdear. that is God’s job. he will make it so that the little things you do will make an impact on someone else in a big way.
Comment by Valen — October 19, 2005 @ 6:13 am
and if you think for one moment that you wont be hurting anyone if you find the perfect way to go, then you are highly mistaken. live on. you have an intense desire to help people, and how exactly are you going to change the world when you’re not around anymore?
on the contrary, your annoyances seem to be based on school. in that case, chill out!! =) look at all the sucessful adults around us. they’ve all obviously survived senior year. i dont even think it matters much to them anymore.
so, i dunno if this helped any, but…
{{hugs}} “it’ll be okay.” -winks-
luv ya girl.
Comment by Valen — October 19, 2005 @ 6:13 am
yes it did help but if you have a life threatening disease you treasure the world, the people and every moment of your life truly and completely i don’t care about feeling worthless just about feeling complete and motivated
Comment by Crissy — October 19, 2005 @ 7:00 pm
Think about this.
We all have a potentially fatal disease known as sin. Radiation and chemotherapy will not cure it. Our days are all numbered. You only have one life to have a purpose for, only one life to spend treasuring the world and making a difference in it.
You’re healthy and bright and the world needs you to treasure it for a long lifetime, not just for however long you’d live with a life-threatening disease.
Sometimes life seems full of dead-time, wasted time, but you can accomplish more with that than with time spent literally dead.
Comment by Lizzy — October 21, 2005 @ 10:36 pm