I’m failing, not just in school but in life itself i have lost all meaning i don’t want to be here i want to live a short meaningful life, i want to help people but not myself. I would rather die tomarrow and help thousands of children then die of old age without helping anyone. I don’t want to live and it bothers me alot it plagues my life every minute and yet i don’t want to hurt anyone when i do it so i’m trying to find the most plausable and environmentally ok death and yet i can’t find out and i guess God is doing that for a reason, it’s just i can’t hear him i can’t see him and yet i need him ever so dearly right now. i can’t hold on much longer i wish there was somebody that could simply just say, “its going to be ok, you’ll get through this,” but the only reply i will ever get is that “your failing math and your going to have to take it again, how stupid can you be.”