I have been dying to get onto a computer to type in like days. Life has been really stressful and i haven’t been doing anything right, seriously! i have been breaking all the rules, i am a very extreme person and either i follow the abide by the rules everyday or i just don’t. its funny. i’m supposed to be studying bio and reading hamlet but i just don’t want and i’m supposed to be eating oh well. but this really helps just to talk to someone/ something how can a person be best friends with a school computer i do not know lol. oh well i better go. i just learned something new today, suicide is not like a solitary, lonely thing like we all think, it’s rather a whirlpool that drags ur family members and friends in as well and yet there are alot of people (including myself) who dwell and think on these things….
My LifeSeptember 27, 2005 7:10 pm
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my best friend actually, is the computer in my room. LOL.
actually, i believe that suicide is a solitary thing. parents will either try to help in a wacked way or be in denial. your friends will sympathize with you but they really will not know how to help.
when one of my friends realized what i was hinting at, it wildly scared me that i could see the helplessness in her eyes because she didn’t know what to do/say to make things better.
there’s nothing, actually, that anyone can do for you.
it is because people who have never come close to seeking death dont understand its promise of an end to life’s struggles. they dont understand the mental battle of reasons to live and reasons to go. they dont understand that when you cant see beyond yourself and your fallen-apart world, its little things that send you over the edge.
i’d love say i know how you feel. i guess to some extent, i do, but “Each heart knows its own bitterness…” (Proverbs 14:10). there is ONE who knows your heart though. after all, HE created it. =)
{{hugs}} luv ya~
Comment by Valen — September 28, 2005 @ 8:22 am